Pride and Passion

I feel great right now. I’m so excited about my birthday party on Thursday. I’ve been calling and talking to lots of people that I haven’t talked to in a while. It’s weird how I feel like I have to have a reason to rekindle friendships with people. It’s like, when I have no direction in my life and I’m not proud of what I’m doing, I’m not as interested in being social and hanging out with friends. Now that I’ve made a decision about what I’m doing, and I’m really excited about it, I love people. I want to see all the friends that I haven’t seen lately. I want to throw a big bday party, which I’ve never done before.

I think that is a good indicator of whether or not my choices are good. There are things that I do that I’m really proud of and that I love talking about with other people. If I’m ever doing something that I’m ashamed of or that I don’t want to share with others, then it’s probably a good indicator that I’m not passionate about it. One of the biggest things that has kept me hopping from one job to the other is that I don’t look forward to what I’m doing. I don’t wake up excited to go to work. Right now, that’s how I am. I’m not excited to go to my sales job or to go work at Runner’s Corner. Once I’m there and I start making sales, I’m really excited about that fact, but I’m never excited to go to work.

That translates into what I tell people. I remember when I worked for Qualtrics, my friend Ty said that I never sounded excited about it. He said that whenever I talked to anyone about it, I was almost ashamed of it. He was right. I wasn’t excited about it and I wasn’t proud of what I was doing. So, for me to be happy about what I’m doing, it needs to be something I’m proud of and that I would love to tell anyone about. That seems to be one of the best indicators of whether or not I’m making good professional decisions. I can probably use that as a forethought. I should ask myself when contemplating any decision if it’s the type of thing I would be proud of.