Flakiness?

Well, I did a bunch of packing today. It felt a little weird because I’m trying to pack things up well, since they’ll be sitting packed up for a couple months. But, today was one of the days where the realization of what I’m doing dawned on me. I so excited and nervous to see what is actually going to happen with this. I mean, I can think of all the ideas that I want to. I can have specific purposes and everything. But, until I really get out there and see how difficult it is to accomplish what I want, I’m really not sure how it will be. But, I’m really going through with this.

Ya know what I hate? When you want to do something fun, like go on a road trip, or do something kind of spontaneous. So, you start inviting your friends, and everyone gets excited and says they are “in”. Then, when it really comes down to it, half the people drop out and only a select few end up following through. I think we, referring to humanity, always want to be the kind of people that are down for anything. But, often, we left fears or other daily pressures get in the way of things we want to do. So, when a friend invites us to do something, we all WANT to do that thing, so we express our initial excitement. Then, as the date gets closer, we start worrying about the financial implications, homework that’s due, getting off of work, etc. So, lots of times we don’t follow through. I’m surprised at how often we are all talk. I know I’ve done it plenty of times. But, I’m not going to be that way with this trip. I’m not just going to talk about doing it and then back out at the last moment because of some fears or pressures that I have. I have to go through with it, because if I make a habit of not going after what I want, I’ll have a life void of fulfillment.

Well, those are the main thoughts I had today as I was packing up. Tomorrow’s Thanksgiving. I’m excited. I’ll be starting it at 5 AM. Better get some sleep.