The Doubts Start

Well, I started having some doubts today about my trip. I was actually surprised that I felt so good about everything so far, so, I guess I kind of expected myself to have doubts. I mean, I still haven’t made my mind up for sure about the whole thing, so it’s understandable that I’ll have doubts. I think I’m just starting to fear some things.

First off, I’m a little nervous about the cold. Even though my plan is to start in Arizona and then head off to CA, it’s still the winter time. During the winter, it’s cold outside, and so I’m not sure if I’ll want to be outside all the time in the cold. This is actually probably one of my biggest fears of the whole trip: timing. Would it be better to go at another time?

Second off, money. I know facing my fears is one of the points of the trip, so it’s natural to have a fear that I won’t have enough money. I just wonder if I’ll get caught some where, unable to raise the funds I need. I just might end up doing crappy jobs just to get by, where, I could just work for money here, and then go on more trips. I was also thinking today of the possibility of keeping my sales job, and just working remotely. That way I could pay for all of my expenses with my job, but I could just travel around while I’m doing it.

So, I think those are my biggest concerns right now. I’m still very optimistic about the trip, but I’m just not feeling as sure as I was. I’ve been doing a lot of reading about travel blogs and stuff online, and it has been educational to see all of the different blogs that are out there and crazy things that people do. I really do want to get out and see more parts of the country, but is the best way to do that penniless? That’s the question to be answered I guess.

On another thought, I’m kind of surprised at how accepted dishonesty is in the sales profession. I like my sales job right now, but I’m just surprised at how comfortable people are with bending the truth. I don’t ever want to make anything up or be dishonest, but other people don’t seem to mind the means, as long as the person understands what they are getting into in the end. I just don’t agree with that.